I have neglected the blog this week as I have been pretty busy and in trying to figure out SOMETHING to post, I remembered this poem. I wrote this poem in 2007, shortly after I had left my ex-wife. I was struggling with the fact that I no longer was able to see my kids on a daily basis and, quite frankly, it was fucking up my life. Anyway, here it is:
Nothing’s constant throughout life
Changes come, causing strife
So sure ‘til now of choices made
Doubts creep up, then pervade
My mind at times when I’m not ready
Keeping my thoughts random, unsteady
Sometimes I can’t help but wonder
Did I choose right or did I blunder?
From what depths do these doubts arise?
Do they seek to create my demise?
To ensnare my consciousness, paralyze my mind?
How do I lose this, how can I find
A way to let my confidence thrive?
So I can move on, so I can survive
Without being plagued, without being hampered
With needless worries that lately have tampered
With my life, with my happiness
And violently raised my level of stress
I’m slowly succumbing to a river of doubt
Wandering, desperate to find a way out
Please let it end for the sake of my sanity
And return to me the wisdom and clarity
I held once before these times of confusion
Before I felt the need for seclusion
Hopefully in time this too will alter
Or in the life I’ll certainly falter
That’s pretty awesome. I’m not a fan of poetry so much either, but that was great. I think it would work really well in a spoken word scenario as well. That’s why I liked it.
I don’t do poetry much either, but every once in a while I get inspired to write some. Not very often though…