Get out of my head
You are no longer welcome
You aren’t worthy
Of the man I’ve become
Your words have no meaning
Your actions speak the truth
Your lies and betrayals
Are completely uncouth
Get out of my heart
Just get the fuck out
You’ve shattered it completely
And strewn it about
My heart deserves better
Than the treatment it’s received
I’m sweeping up the pieces
The remains of make-believe
Get out of my life
You’re a poisonous soul
You manipulate and use
Your well-being your only goal
You stomp over others
To get what you desire
Your lies destroying lives
Much like a wild-fire
Just turn around and leave
Don’t say another word
Your inane ramblings are
The dumbest things I’ve ever heard
I don’t want you to be
Any part of my life
You’re a sick twisted person
Who I once called my wife
Wow….that was very powerful and well done. I love the line “I’m sweeping up the pieces, the remains of make-believe”. You do deserve so much better!!
I concur.
Like a doctor.
Still praying for you, TwinDaddy. Xx
Thank you. I’ll be fine. Some day.
Even then, I’ll still be praying! Not just because it’s what I’m doing with my life, but because I care about what happens to the people who I know, whether through the internet or through other means.
Thank you. I appreciate that very much.
Powerful!
I hope it brings you some catharsis.
And if not, keep at it. No pint letting her take up valuable brain real estate.
Precisely.
I can relate to this, even though I’m not angry at my ex wife anymore.
Oh, I imagine I’ll be angry for a long time.
You will be. But it will take up less and lessspace in your heart.
Yeah, I know. That can’t happen fast enough, though.
Of course.
Being angry helps actually, it’s a good thing in the short term. After that, I decided I had better things to do with my life than think about her, and I got on with those things. Had a rebound fling with a different woman as well; short lived but it helped too.
Well, I have my kids to keep me busy most of the time, but for some reason on my drive to work this morning…
So sorry you’re going through all of this, TwinDaddy. May it ease quickly.
I hope so, Elyse. I hope so.
Writing will help. So will time.
I know. I’m writing. And finding things to do with my time.
I’m sorry all of this is happening. You deserve so much better.
Yeah, I probably do. It’s hard to think about right now, though.
Nothing quite like the pain of heartache is there? Things will get better. You are too amazing for them not to.
Yeah, I know they will. Sometimes it’s hard to control where my mind goes, though.
I understand that… It is so much easier to think about the worst of it all when we aren’t feeling the greatest; staying positive seems to require energy and effort we just don’t have. But, that’s where friends come in! Even “fake” internet friends, because we can be positive for you! And tell you that you are amazing, and tell you that things will get better, and eventually some of our positivity will wear off on you. You won’t be able to stop it. *insert maniacal laughter here*
Lol, thanks, DJ. I think the biggest thing I need to do now is catch up on my sleep.
Yep, sleep has some pretty amazing restorative properties. Want me to sing you a lullaby? (FYI – did you know that Green Day and No Doubt have lullaby versions of their songs out there?! We got two CDs for the baby shower a few weekends ago – I’m still geeking out about it.)
That sounds…weird.
Hah! Well, yeah, maybe a little, but still super awesome! I’ll probably be listening to the lullaby versions long after the kiddo has moved on to psy-dub-pop-blues, or whatever style is going to be popular in 5 years.
That was a fantastic piece, made better by the sentiment. The self-blaming has given was to something much more realistic. I hope you are doing well.
Well, the self blame from before was well-deserved, but not this time. This time it’s all on her. I did my best and I’m sure I made mistakes, but they weren’t worthy of ending a marriage. So, basically, fuck her.
“So, basically, fuck her”
Is it wrong I find this statement so awesome?
Fucking brilliant my friend.
Love ya bunches!!
From this weird-o in blog-top-o-lis.
It’s never wrong to be you.
I love that about you. I toss that word around a lot in relation to you but it’s true. I adore that someone wants somebody to be themselves.
Plain awesome.
I’ve spent too much of my life trying to be what somebody else wanted me to be. No more. Fuck that. I’m being me from now on. You don’t like it? You know where the fucking door is.
Reason #2103734892482398347 why twindaddy is shitballs awesome.
I concur. Like a doctor.
I thought of “Catch me if you can” when I read that
YAY!! you have the power now. Good on you and yes you made mistakes before but at the time I couldn’t help thinking that if it were my hubby going through an illness like that there is no way I would threaten to leave because marriage means more than that. In sickness and in health etc. But I didn’t say it at the time because I thought it would have been inappropriate (probably still is, but hey, I always have my foot in my mouth in one way or another!).
Well, evidently vows or promises don’t mean much to some people.
That’s sad but true.
Extremely sad.
Fierce, angry poetry, twindaddy! She must have wounded you deeply, so sorry to know that a friend is going through this pain. Hopefully as time passes, the hurt will start to fade.
I’m not too happy with her, that’s for sure.
I have been there. The anger does eventually go away. I promise.
I know it does. But right now, it’s pretty potent.
I know. Im glad you wrote about it. It helps.
I did feel better afterword.
Great!
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I didn’t know you knew my ex….
J/k though it is very fitting for him.
but I”m glad you got your feelings out there. ITs good for you.
Yeah, I know. Just had a shitty morning.
I understand
Hugs.
Thank you. Very much.
This was great and certainly a wonderful way to release anger. Been there with the lies and betrayal it’s certainly no freaking fun. I hate that we have to go through theses phases to get to happiness, but I guess they serve their purpose….I hope you have a quick ride to happiness! How do you like your place?
It was rough the first day or so. Everything was still packed up plus the sink upstairs was clogged and the dishwasher flooded the kitchen, but since then those things have been taken care of. It’s a little weird being alone, but I’ll get used to it.
This is one of the best expressive pieces I have read. It is nice to see someone share word with some raw emotion.
Glad you liked it. It felt pretty good to rid those thoughts from my mind.
Raw, deeply personal (I’m guessing.) and very moving.
Yes, very personal.
That’s fine. Sharing is healing, buddy.