Hi there. I’ve realized or have been made to realize a couple of things this week. 1. I have no pictures of myself except for ID and 2. If someone took a pic of me I would look tortured.
So here I start my ramble from number 1 to number 2 (yeah pun, stifle). It is a long road, but I will get there.
1. A friend wanted me to send a pic for whatever reason. I realized I didn’t have one to send. I think cameras steal souls plus I live with me 24/7 so I don’t need a daily reminder of what I look like…I did ask a coworker to take one..which starts the road to number 2…(stifle…)
I am addicted to magazines. That is not a realization. My favorites are Scientific American Mind and Psychology Today. It is fascinating to learn why we do what we do and refreshing to know that we don’t need a PHD to understand. That being said, I will buy pretty much anything with a glossy cover, including People, if the story seems compelling.
The March 4 edition of People had the saddest cover I’ve seen. Country music star Mindy McCready killed herself. I didn’t know who she was before then. The magazine was tucked in such a way that only her eyes peeped out and they looked tortured. When I saw the remaining cover, her lips were curved up in a Mona Lisa smile…I needed to buy and read…so sad.
In my depressed state I started thinking about her suicide and that in general. It seems to range on a spectrum…the ranges seem to be…I would never do it…I would think about doing it but couldn’t…I’ve thought about it, tried and failed…and I’ve done it…Personally I’ve been within that spectrum in the doing stages but that is private. What I HATE is when someone uses it as a threat…I just can’t understand those that use it as a threat when so many people take the action…whoa digression supreme.
So I guess we come to number 2…I’ve been reading the magazine off and on at work. I also told a coworker about not having a picture of myself…she volunteered to take one but she told me “you can’t look like that” as she pointed to my magazine. I asked her what she meant…and she told me “you have her smile”. Seriously? At that moment the buzz was killed and no pictures were taken…sorry friend.